i still miss you
im not sure if still is the right word
or miss really
seeing as you sit across from me
and i see you every
mondaytuesdaywednesdaythursdayfridqy
of the week
well now its more like
monday thursday tuesday friday
but still my heart cramps
when i see your face
i cant escape the feeling that
i could have made you happy and
i could only really laugh around you
in school at least;
you were my safe space
a place to escape the unfamiliarity
of the people who see through me everyday
i thought you understood me-us-you/r
actions showed me otherwise
always less than, always a night time suprise
never first in your eyes
never as special as you were to me
everytime i see
you i wish only the best & peace & happiness.
even though my chest cries screams
of betrayal, of hurt of
i thought you were better than that even though my friends told me otherwise but your eyes told me better lies, your arms told me better lies your laugh was the best lie
and yet
there's forever someone else
history repeats although 2 years made up of a friendship and a half is hardly a history to stand by
i would've stood by you, but you left me on standby so i suppose the best thing to do would be to say
goodbye
again
again
again
i wish the thought of you would leave me again
its like we missed each other by a minute again
or by 1 month and a lifetime
(but i thought of you everyday)
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